>_>
....<_<

You guys seriously post too much crap. xD DA is my homepage on firefox, and I actually needed to use firefox today instead of Opera, so I decided to drop in to say a few things. Mainly, you guize need to talk to me on msn more. Yes, you, Ishy/Erika. OTHERS TOO. I've been lame and haven't done anything slightly artistic in the past who knows how long, so no new deviations.
Well, back to playing Mabinogi nonstop like the addict I am. If you guys have it, add me. Serris0 or Tarlach Server. Gogogogo.

I'm finally adding new deviations again...More to come, too. Anyways, I watched the entire series of deathnote over the past three days..it was amazing.

ANYWHOOOOOOO... I should be going to connecticut for the first week of August, to see my closest friend, Andrew. Fun, fun fun....havent seen him in 9 months, so I'm hoping it happens. Besides that, I have no plans and have HAD no plans for this summer. Oh well, I met a lot of great people here on DA, so I'm happy *looks at Erika, Ismy, Maddy, Anthony*.

Four days later...we both said sorry for what happened.
In as hopeless of a situation as this one, part of me still hoped for this the entire time... It's showed me once again that there is no complete loss until you lose hope completely.
I now know why I hope so much....because sometimes, that's all you have, and it can be enough to make you see that things do get better...

I begin to wonder why I came...

6/14/2008 10:54:02 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
im srry for what i sad to you yesterday


6/14/2008 10:54:33 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
its just me being upset and pissed.... i didnt mean anything i said and me and erika are on common ground


6/14/2008 10:56:31 PM Ð-И-Λ
looked like you meant it, need to text?


6/14/2008 10:56:36 PM Ð-И-Λ
*the text?


6/14/2008 10:57:04 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
no i have it...


6/14/2008 10:58:40 PM Ð-И-Λ
i guess I dont need it anyways


6/14/2008 10:58:46 PM Ð-И-Λ
I mean, look at your name


6/14/2008 10:59:19 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
my name is a name


6/14/2008 11:00:15 PM Ð-И-Λ
yeah, and it sounds something close to you not caring


6/14/2008 11:00:40 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
no... just becuase of the fact the name is rude isnt showing my feelings


6/14/2008 11:05:18 PM Ð-И-Λ
whatever..


6/14/2008 11:05:41 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
...


6/14/2008 11:07:37 PM Ð-И-Λ
why should I forgive you... we’ll only be back here in 2 weeks tops


6/14/2008 11:08:43 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
is becuase you keep pushing it.. and it just it makes me more pissed


6/14/2008 11:09:23 PM Ð-И-Λ
I didnt do a damn thing to you at the time


6/14/2008 11:09:48 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
yes you do


6/14/2008 11:11:25 PM Ð-И-Λ
alright, please, tell me: what was it that I did yesterday that MADE you get pissed to the point where you said what you did?


6/14/2008 11:13:20 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
you're the only one acting like a rival, and you're too busy being pissed off to see it


6/14/2008 11:13:30 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
find out what you really want, brother...stop the games and actually think clearly, because it's apparent that ever since erika broke up with you, you haven't.


6/14/2008 11:13:38 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
and if you have nothing to say but hate, I really dont care...


6/14/2008 11:13:43 PM Ð-И-Λ
and this is all AFTER


6/14/2008 11:14:57 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
no its not... its part of it too


6/14/2008 11:16:44 PM Ð-И-Λ
“you're the only one acting like a rival, and you're too busy being pissed off to see it” you were acting pissed towards erika for who knows what reasons, and all she wanted is to stay your friend. Instead of seeing this, you saw it that she was doing everything wrong


6/14/2008 11:17:15 PM Ð-И-Λ
“find out what you really want, brother...stop the games and actually think clearly, because it's apparent that ever since erika broke up with you, you haven't.” you’ve been too busy being pissed at erika to think clearly.


6/14/2008 11:17:50 PM Ð-И-Λ
“and if you have nothing to say but hate, I really dont care...” because I was sick of hearing nothing but how much yu hate her and how she’s going to die if you see her, etc.


6/14/2008 11:18:34 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
that started it becuase i never asked for help


6/14/2008 11:18:42 PM Ð-И-Λ
and I was already pissed at that point anyways


6/14/2008 11:19:22 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
i dont ask for help unless needed..


6/14/2008 11:20:06 PM Ð-И-Λ
it doesnt really matter if you ask for help...because if noone does, you just sit in the darkness saying you want to die and your life sucks


6/14/2008 11:20:16 PM Ð-И-Λ
if noone tries helping, you’d be completely there


6/14/2008 11:20:41 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
no if i fight my own battles..


6/14/2008 11:20:51 PM Ð-И-Λ
there is no battle to be fought


6/14/2008 11:20:58 PM Ð-И-Λ
this isnt a battle


6/14/2008 11:21:09 PM Ð-И-Λ
if you want to think of it, it’s an injury


6/14/2008 11:21:56 PM Ð-И-Λ
and regardless of if you want help or not, if you dont get it, then yeah, figure out the rest


6/14/2008 11:28:05 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
i never had anyone to lean on so i can realy on people... so i dont ask for it


6/14/2008 11:28:26 PM Ð-И-Λ
what you had then and what you have now are two different things


6/14/2008 11:28:51 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
yea my past stays with me becuase ive been that way for so long


6/14/2008 11:30:43 PM Ð-И-Λ
unless you want it to stay that way, you do need help


6/14/2008 11:31:05 PM Ð-И-Λ
because trying to fight your own battles, when there’s no battle to be fought is just repeating the past


6/14/2008 11:31:23 PM Ð-И-Λ
you’re making yourself alone when you dont have to be


6/14/2008 11:33:43 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
ive always been a solo person... i dont like reling on other fight for me...


6/14/2008 11:33:52 PM Ð-И-Λ
there is no fight


6/14/2008 11:34:08 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
you dont understand dan and im not enlightening anyone


6/14/2008 11:35:42 PM Ð-И-Λ
then exactly how do you expect anyone to understand?


6/14/2008 11:36:18 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
i dont want people to understand my problems... becuase i face them alone


6/14/2008 11:36:39 PM Ð-И-Λ
just like in the past, huh?


6/14/2008 11:37:45 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
yes becuase im still havent let go of it yet... becuase i want that to lean on atm..


6/14/2008 11:39:16 PM Ð-И-Λ
so, the past is your problem, and what you want is for people to let you continue on as you were in the past


6/14/2008 11:40:06 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
no.. its im not fully ready to let it go becuase every damn time i try something new it always back fires


6/14/2008 11:42:03 PM Ð-И-Λ
what’s backfired, and how?


6/14/2008 11:43:01 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
everytime i try and move away from my past and then someone takes a cheap shot


6/14/2008 11:43:25 PM Ð-И-Λ
yeah, more specific than that


6/14/2008 11:43:28 PM Ð-И-Λ
what have you tried?


6/14/2008 11:49:29 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
why would it matter


6/14/2008 11:54:02 PM Ð-И-Λ
because you’re being too general, and I dont recall you ever trying to move that far from your past


6/14/2008 11:54:18 PM Ð-И-Λ
and for when you said you did, I dont remember any “cheap shots”


6/14/2008 11:54:38 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
i guess people arent as observent


6/14/2008 11:55:31 PM Ð-И-Λ
you still havent told me of a single time


6/14/2008 11:56:43 PM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
should be more observent


6/14/2008 11:59:28 PM Ð-И-Λ
there’s been no time where you’ve full-out moved from your past...and even if someone takes a cheap-shot, it doesnt mean you should quit


6/14/2008 11:59:45 PM Ð-И-Λ
how many times has sticking to the past back-fired?


6/14/2008 11:59:58 PM Ð-И-Λ
I know of plenty


6/15/2008 12:00:11 AM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
never in my pov


6/15/2008 12:00:29 AM Ð-И-Λ
then why are you talking to me?


6/15/2008 12:00:49 AM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
becuase atm.. its fun pissing people off


6/15/2008 12:00:52 AM Ð-И-Λ
that should have been all according to plan


6/15/2008 12:01:38 AM Ð-И-Λ
oh, am I making you mad?


6/15/2008 12:01:45 AM Ð-И-Λ
there’s another backfire


6/15/2008 12:02:30 AM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
not really the human mind is easily minpulated.. that all im doing


6/15/2008 12:02:59 AM Ð-И-Λ
quit acting superior, it’s really annoying


6/15/2008 12:03:23 AM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
im not im just telling the truth


6/15/2008 12:03:25 AM Ð-И-Λ
well, last choice then if you want to act arrogant, selfish, and generally like an ass then:


6/15/2008 12:03:56 AM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival
*laughs*


6/15/2008 12:05:35 AM Ð-И-Λ
stay in your darkness, give everyone else the blame, and stay in the past, going in circles. end up dead, because of all your own actions, and lose all the people close to you


6/15/2008 12:05:45 AM Ð-И-Λ
or actually realize you need help, and find it

6/15/2008 12:05:50 AM Ð-И-Λ
cya later




Nathan says:
tell dan 1 thing.. i listen to the people that are on the top of my caring list not people who are in the middle of it.. becuase i care for alot more people then he knows


UPDATE: 3 days later

6/17/2008 12:10:34 PM ffxideath@hotmail.com
ill give you one last chance.... other then that i dont give a shit


6/17/2008 3:20:56 PM Ð-И-Λ
alright....finally free from stuff I had to do around the house...should be able to talk now...


6/17/2008 3:22:49 PM what is a true friend?
ok


6/17/2008 3:27:00 PM Ð-И-Λ
well...I have a feq questions...


6/17/2008 3:27:19 PM Ð-И-Λ
*few


6/17/2008 3:27:35 PM what is a true friend?
um ok.. peter is over and im playing a game with him.. on the ps2


6/17/2008 3:27:45 PM Ð-И-Λ
ok


6/17/2008 3:27:52 PM Ð-И-Λ
if you want this can wait then


6/17/2008 3:35:27 PM what is a true friend?
you can talk ill just awnser when i cane


6/17/2008 3:39:01 PM Ð-И-Λ
alright..


6/17/2008 3:39:41 PM Ð-И-Λ
"Dan i know i hurt you but i need to talk to you so will you pls unblock me so we can sort things out.. i dont want to make a rival out of us... i know we had a great friendship and i dont want these fight to be the one that makes us enemies... so can you pls call me or atleast unblock me on MSN so we can sort everything out.. i dont want you hurt and this is hurting me also..


6/17/2008 3:39:50 PM Ð-И-Λ
i know what i said was wrong.. but most of it came from being paranoid.. and then i was tired and i was thinking of way to much at one time... making me say stuff i really didnt what to say.. so pls atleast give me 1 last chance to make things right between us.. Nathan"


6/17/2008 3:40:12 PM Ð-И-Λ
that was an email from you...


6/17/2008 3:40:21 PM Ð-И-Λ
did you mean everything in it, at the time?


6/17/2008 3:43:36 PM what is a true friend?
i meant it at the time yes.. but atm no i dont


6/17/2008 3:44:12 PM Ð-И-Λ
alright...


6/17/2008 3:46:37 PM Ð-И-Λ
well...from what I understand, you went to maddy for help...so you did listen to me that night...=\


6/17/2008 3:47:41 PM Ð-И-Λ
now...I really don't understand this at all now...

Nathan says: tell dan 1 thing.. i listen to the people that are on the top of my caring list not people who are in the middle of it.. becuase i care for alot more people then he knows

so what does any of this mean...?


6/17/2008 3:50:37 PM what is a true friend?
no i ask her for help usually when im talking to her.. becuase i trust her more then anyone


6/17/2008 3:51:14 PM Ð-И-Λ
the way she put it to me...she said you came to her for help right after =\


6/17/2008 3:51:19 PM Ð-И-Λ
but alright


6/17/2008 3:51:37 PM what is a true friend?
whatever


6/17/2008 3:54:01 PM Ð-И-Λ
well, I guess there's one last question....what's the main reason you're mad at me?


6/17/2008 3:59:48 PM what is a true friend?
stay in your darkness, give everyone else the blame, and stay in the past, going in circles. end up dead, because of all your own actions, and lose all the people close to you


6/17/2008 3:59:55 PM what is a true friend?
or actually realize you need help, and find it


6/17/2008 4:00:04 PM what is a true friend?
cya later


6/17/2008 4:00:07 PM what is a true friend?
then blocking me..


6/17/2008 4:00:22 PM what is a true friend?
so what is the point of actually listening...


6/17/2008 4:00:54 PM Ð-И-Λ
the way it sounded, you werent listening even before that..


6/17/2008 4:01:12 PM Ð-И-Λ
6/15/2008 12:00:49 AM people are who they are and i damn well dont care if they want to be a rival becuase atm.. its fun pissing people off


6/17/2008 4:01:20 PM what is a true friend?
my point


6/17/2008 4:01:56 PM Ð-И-Λ
I don't see how..


6/17/2008 4:04:52 PM Ð-И-Λ
...I understood the situation as you went to maddy for help because of this...she explained it to me that way, even


6/17/2008 4:05:52 PM Ð-И-Λ
at the end of that conversation I was just tired of arguing, I didnt want to keep on going on with it, so I just stopped it


6/17/2008 4:08:11 PM what is a true friend?
whatever


6/17/2008 4:16:00 PM Ð-И-Λ
alright...


6/17/2008 4:17:50 PM Ð-И-Λ
I just really can't stand it any more....being against you doesnt feel right to me, at all..


6/17/2008 4:18:17 PM what is a true friend?
has no effect on me


6/17/2008 4:20:54 PM Ð-И-Λ
it's like.....ever since a while back, when you told me I was your closest friend, I really felt bad because I didnt think of you the same at the time... before this happened, I actually thought of you as a true friend, and it felt like you thought the same...


6/17/2008 4:21:06 PM Ð-И-Λ
and....a true friend wouldnt let this end this way


6/17/2008 4:23:33 PM Ð-И-Λ
I guess that's what I really wanted say...


6/17/2008 4:26:34 PM what is a true friend?
intresting


6/17/2008 4:33:42 PM Ð-И-Λ
and....I dont want this to end like this...


6/17/2008 4:34:21 PM what is a true friend?
i could careless


6/17/2008 4:35:42 PM Ð-И-Λ
then, I guess that's all..


6/17/2008 4:36:40 PM what is a true friend?
guess so


6/17/2008 6:01:54 PM ffxideath@hotmail.com
*knows you dont want to talk to him and will block you again so it stays that way*

(he blocks me)

6/17/2008 6:10:29 PM Ð-И-Λ
you're some piece of work...you expect and get forgiveness constantly, because the people you care for actually are patient...yet none will come from you. What goes around, comes around, Nathan. when people stop forgiving you, you'll see exactly what you did


and so I lost a friend.

Well, I'm going to be gone this entire week. I'm going to be in Mexico, visiting family and whatnot. It'll be a nice vacation, but I'm not that excited about it...don't really know why. Oh well, I'll enjoy myself, even though I'll be missing a few people in particular...YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! :glad: I'll be coming back with something for probably all my friends, too. I'm gonna be worried/hoping for one thing during the time, though... I'm hoping that the worries end up being for nothing in the end.